I got tired of watching my children just skim by with the bare necessities while my husband bought things he wanted but really didn't need so I went out and got a job. It was factory work that paid about $150 a week. I paid the bills and bought what the kids needed when they needed it. This encouraged my husband to quit working and stay at home searching internet porn sites while the kids stayed with my sisters. It wasn't long before it was painfully obvious I didn't make enough money. He would purchase crap online and then say things like "It's only $50 a month." He had me so nickeled and dimed that started looking for a second job just to pay for everything. As soon as I got one thing paid off he would get us on a payment plan for something else. I was so broke that I couldn't afford to purchase food for lunch. Most mornings I had to get the kids ready to go to Mom's at the same time I was getting ready for work which left me no time for breakfast then I had no money for lunch. The part that angered me the most was that he had his CDL at the time and could have got a job that paid the bills and then some but chose to live off my measly $150 a week.
The factory closed and I moved on to college and a job at McDonald's. He worked on and off at McDonald's with me but never returned to truck driving. When I got released of my duties at McDonald's for having a baby was about the time he received his disability--he developed a seizure disorder. I had all four children to care for and a husband who at the time I had to watch because a seizure could occur at any time. He still had no clue how to live within his means but after about a year and a half I found a job at Wal-Mart.
Wal-Mart and their infrequent scheduling system made it hard to plan things ahead. I would request a day off and hope to have the day off. More times than not I didn't so I missed events my children were in at the school, birthday parties, and holidays with family. Wal-Mart expects you to plan your life around them which would make since if it was a high paying executive job but it's freaking retail. Why go to work on Thanksgiving Day for two customers and fried chicken in the break room? Get real!
I became the Mom I never wanted to be and that was the disconnected Mom. I miss everything, no one ever shows me a note, and I get told something needs paid after I paid all the bills and I'm broke. I attended college with all this crap occurring around me with the hope of a better life. All I got was my in-laws telling me how selfish I was for putting work and college before my own children. They even called family services on me for neglect. I'm sorry but their son was at home with the children and had the ability to do laundry and clean house I was taking care of financing. You see a mother who truly loves their children stay home and care for them.
I need a nanny and a maid to keep up with everything. I need help but no one wants to assist. My husband is just lazy but tells everyone the house looks like crap because of me. Yes, because I wasn't there to put his tools up when he used them or throw his clothes in the washer when he stripped them off. I hate him because he's there for the children but yet is not there for them at the same time. Why can't there be a clause in the marriage license that when the man does not operate as a man a woman could just pay court fees to end the marriage? I would have to have $3000 to just get started. $1500 for my lawyer and $1500 for the children to have a lawyer. He isn't worth $3000 to start with.
I need a new model in husband. When your car doesn't work you get a new one--same concept. He did get a job recently at McDonald's in Ava but is threatening to quit--no big surprise. I need to find a career that pays because I desperately need to trade in the husband I got. It won't help with being a better Mom but at least I could use my money on things we need instead of what he wants all the time.
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